My Body, "Mine" not "Yours"...

Hey Lovelies,
Today I wanted to do something different on my blog, I am going to talk about something that had been on my mind for a while now. My body, my weight gain... I know having a blog means I am basically putting my self out there for people to comment on and judge but that doesn't mean you should be rude and disrespectful to me. Honestly I did gain weight this last 5-6 months maybe about 10-15 pounds I am not really sure but I am trying not to stress about it cos stress plus "doing too much" caused it in the first place.
 Last semester in school was definitely my most difficult in my college life. I was taking 7 classes (I Chemistry, 1 Biology, 2 science labs and 3 writing classes), I transferred to a new school in the semester before so I am trying to catch up with their curriculum and not spend any extra semester in college. I was also working 2 jobs (about 40 hours a week) and blogging 3-4 times a week. I probably got like 4 hours of sleep every single day for 3 months and I don't know how I did it. I just tried at all times to be up to date with my assignments and work. I would finish classes and work in school, go to my other job where I am on my feet for 6 hours and then still come back home to do assignment and study. Meanwhile I didn't have a car then so I walked sometimes and took the bus and train most times. So I just ate anything, mostly cookies, chocolates and junk food, something to just quench my hunger plus I was so stressed out trying to keep up with school and work that I ended up gaining some weight. 
I admit I made the mistake of putting too much on my plate and it was not like I needed the money I was just trying to prove that I could it all I guess. I am just tired of people commenting on my pictures saying "Oh you look nice but I see you have gained some weight" or coming to my face and telling me "Oooh you know you need lose some weight" and the most hurtful part even my younger brother calls me "fat" almost every time he sees me. It hurts so bad every time someone calls me "fat" or tell me I have gained weight. I would go to my room, crying and looking into the mirror to see what they were all talking about. Seriously "It's my body. mine not yours." You don't have the right to tell me how my body should be or how I should look. I don't want to be a size 0, I am comfortable being a size 8. If I personally see that I am gaining too much weight I think I am old enough to decide that by myself. 
I am not trying to rant or scold anyone I just trying trying to keep it real. It's not all about taking pictures of my outfit and smiling all the time, sometimes I hurt inside and since it's my blog I am allowed to share things like this if I chose to. We are all not perfect, there is always something we have issues with in our bodies. I just wanted to encourage myself and you all to learn to love our bodies, we are humans. There are times we would gain weight, lose weight and just not feel happy with ourselves. As for me I am working on my body issues with the help of my father, God and trying not to let what others are saying about me affect me in any shape or form. After all, "it's my body, not there's."
I know this is a bit much but if you have read through this, thank you so much for letting me share this with you and feel free to let me know your thoughts in the comments below.
 Have a wonderful Saturday!

12 comments

  1. Raliat I don't know what people say about you. But,all that matters to me is the person. You are a very beautiful person,and I can vouch on that any day. I gain pounds too when I'm stressed with my studies, but that doesn't stop me from thinking that I'm beautiful. Always remember, that no matter what others say, you are beautiful and will always remain so!!! <3 <3

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    1. Thank you so much Divya, I am glad I can relate to you cos I gain weight when am stressed as well...:)

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  2. Hello Diva!
    I stumbled on your blog about 3months ago and I have been following ever since I am always looking out for your post because you are youngster like myself and most of all your beautiful&theres just something about you that makes you special, wow can't believe you were working and juggling school that alone has proven that you can do it all and that you are independent people like to push and tempt people just to validate themselves , what matters is how you see yourself although its not easy when hateration is coming from several angles.
    Raliat you are strong, you are beautiful and you exude strength and confidence and you inspire me because someday I hope to start my blog. No one can bring you down. And honey you weren't ranting it happens to us all. Xoxo

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    1. Than ks Chuqqie! Good luck on starting the blog, Let me kn ow when you do and I am looking forward to seeing your posts. Good Luck!

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  3. Hey girl!

    I went through the same thing when I lost my job in 2010. I let those haters motivate me and I lost 72 pounds and have kept it off. Even now they say now I am too skinny or will even say I looked better over weight even though they are the ones who called me cat everyday.

    The thing is you can never win with ppl like that.So its best to just DO YOU. at the end of the day its you who has put yourself out there to be critisized. Its you who has the courage to blog and create these wonderful outfits. At the end of the day ppl who say your fat are just mirroring their own problems and projecting it on to you. And they are jealous. Keep uour head up! You exude confidence, class, and beauty!

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    1. Thank you Airie! 72 pounds? That's very impressive! I totally agree with you, I can't satisfy everyone, there will always be someone who criticizes. I just have to stay true to myself and just do me.

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  4. I really know how you feel regarding that weight part (I'm struggling myself) and even though sometimes it's hard, I want you to keep your head up! People will always have something to say, whether you do good or bad. Keep being yourself because at the end of the day it's all about you and how you feel. As long as you love yourself, their opinion don't matter at all. To be honest I don't even think you're "fat". Those people trying to put you down are just bored and wasting their time seriously!
    xx

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    1. Thanks so much Diane for the advice...:)

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  5. You have basically said the right thing. Stay positive and continue doing what you love. People will always talk but you have to be the one to keep your head in the right place. Forget people joor! You are beautiful in your own way.

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  6. Raliat, you are a beautiful woman. When I first found your blog (through a random google search), I not only loved your style but I also thought you were drop dead gorgeous. That's why this post shocked me...I can't believe some people actually think that you're fat! You're perfect the way you are! And even if YOU think you may be a little overweight...that's none of anyone else's business.

    A woman's weight is a sensitive issue. Although I have never been overweight or "fat", I used to get made fun of ALL THE TIME by my supposed "friends" for being so skinny. I've always been a skinny stick...that's just the way God made me. I've even had horrible people spread rumors about me at my old job, saying I had an eating disorder. It was horrible! Once in High School, a boy that liked me (but I rejected) drove by me with a car full of his friends. They all started laughing as he yelled things to me like "eat something!" and "you're too skinny!" I was walking down a busy street...it was so embarrassing. :(

    I think that people will judge you and pick on you regardless of being underweight, overweight, or just right. Society is partly to blame. But I think a lot of times those people are hurting and are looking for an easy victim to make fun of. Hurting people hurt people.

    Just remember how amazing you are! Don't let these critics make you feel blue. There are far too many wonderful things to be blessed with in this life. Negativity shouldn't have a room in our lives.

    XO Azu

    www.raven-locks.blogspot.com

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  7. Thank you so much for the wise advice Azu, I totally agree the society to blame in this and people always have something to say where it's been too "fat" or too "skinny."

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